Confessions

I found out she was cheating when I saw her WhatsApp status — a picture with someone else captioned 'my everything.' I was sitting right next to her when she posted it. She didn't even realize I saw. I just got up, said 'I have to go,' and never went back. No drama. No fight. Just silence. Sometimes silence says everything.

We were together for 4 years. She left me for someone she met 2 weeks ago. When I asked why, she said 'you're too predictable.' I thought being consistent was a good thing. I thought showing up every day, remembering the small things, being reliable — that mattered. Apparently not. Maybe I was boring. But at least I was real.

Breakup ke baad maine apne saare purane photos delete kar diye. Ab jab kabhi memories aati hain, toh dekhne ke liye bhi kuch nahi hai. Pehle dard hota tha, ab sirf khaalipan hai. Pata nahi kya bura hai — dard ya ye numbness.

उसने breakup के बाद कहा 'let's be friends.' मैंने हाँ कह दिया। अब हर रोज़ उसकी बातें सुनता हूँ — नए crush के बारे में, date plans के बारे में। मुस्कुराता हूँ, लेकिन अंदर से टूटता हूँ। 'Friends' बनना सबसे बड़ी गलती थी मेरी।

सबसे ज़्यादा दर्द तब हुआ जब उसने मेरे भेजे हुए messages को seen करके ignore कर दिया। Block करना बेहतर होता — कम से कम uncertainty तो नहीं होती। Seen zone ek slow poison hai.